WELLLLL Its been a good while

Ok. Here's what's new.

I live with my fiance now. My best friend lives in town with me. I've got a year of school left. I'm starting my Mary Kay business. I'm taking online classes this semester. AND WE FINALLY SET A WEDDING DATE!! I will be married on July 25, 2011!! Josh finally got me a ring, and with the ring came the wedding date. I'm not really doing well in my online classes because well I've been working alot.

I've got my wedding dress - bought it for about $105 at a consignment shop in my hometown. I ordered my bridesmaids' dresses. And again - $120 (for half of three dresses). We're gonna get a location and everything else soon.

Oh yeah. I got my tattoo the other day. Pretty awesome if I do say so myself!

Welp! Off to bed. Its soo calling my name.

Been so busy...

School's been getting the best of me. I have a article critique paper due on Thursday and a final theory paper for the same class due next Thursday.
Nothings new too terribly much, I'm trying to find a job a lot closer to my house. Because my car broke down 2 weeks ago. I was also suspended from work...UGH.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't an adult, because as a kid I never had to tell bill collectors that I just don't have to money at this very moment. i lost a lot of work the past 2 weeks because of my car and then being suspended. Its frustrating, because I haven't even paid my own rent yet. And I need to because my new room mates are moving in in May.
I got my friends John and Mary to sign the lease and their taking Cameo's room and my best friend Ashley is moving in and taking Vickie's room. John and Mary have paid their deposit, I'm paying mine after A&A Property does their inspection, and Ashley's paying hers soon I think.
I think Josh's and my wedding's been pushed off for at least 2 years. I don't like the idea, but certain circumstances haven made it so that's what I've gotta do. My older brother will be a father soon, his daughter will be born in June.
I'm going home for a week, I haven't decided if I want to go home for the summer or not yet, I really want to, it would make paying everything SO much easier, especially since I wouldn't be using the gas on my car as often, abut that would also mean that I wouldn't get to see Josh either, since he's staying in town in his apartment. I know he's going home for his brother's graduation. I'm supposed to be doing relay for life this semester, but its on May 7...I'll raise the money, but I'm supposed to go home on May 4Th. I gotta remember to get my final exam days off as well. Or at least rearrange my schedule, but I don't think I can work and still study for my finals...So yeah. I'm taking them off. I'm going to have to tell mom that I'm pushing my days for coming home by a week. We're going to look at dresses when I go home, it will be fun. I'm gonna take pictures of the dresses I try on and send copies to Josh's mom. Its so hard when families are so far apart.
HE HE I just remembered that in May when Vickie moves out, my cats can be released from my room. I hate that they had to be stuck in there all semester....That's just not right. It was that or Vickie was going to let them out because she's 'allergic' to them. How are you all of a sudden allergic to cats? I'm allergic to them and I live with them. All you have to do is take some Benedryl and you're good. But NOOOOOO! She had to be a complete bitch about it, even though coming into this deal she KNEW that I had cats. I used to have Namaste and Sonik and then I got Yoda. But I sent Namaste back home with mom and I kept Sonik and Yoda. These are my cats and if she had let them out side I would've been so pissed that I probably would've done something so rash.

Haven't Written in a while

So Josh and I've decided on a general location for the wedding, just not the date. He's really pushing for a wedding that's after we graduate. And after we're both in the military. I'm not gonna push it though. I don't wanna scare him away, he's pretty scared already.
School's getting grueling, I hate theory essays. They're useless.
I'm also 21 and instead of buying groceries I bought alcohol. *Shrugs* Live and learn.
I can make some chicken tonight for later.
I actually got criticized the other day. Melissa from work said that I shouldn't have said yes to Josh when he didn't have a ring. Um, who said you had to have a ring? I am not materialistic like that. I don't need a ring, at least until the wedding. And I'm OK with it.
In May Ash is moving up here, so my living situation is going to change.
I've got a coworker in basic training for the National Guard. So I've been getting pictures and letters together from work to send to him, because he's so homesick right now.
I got my new computer, and its really really cool. The only downfall is that I'm stuck in the living room, because it doesn't have a wireless router.
Its OK though. My cats are doing well, annoying though, but still doing alright.

I'm engaged!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!
Ok so i know that a lot of my rants have been depressing, but this one's good I swear!

I'm engaged!!!! He came to my job, brought me a dozen roses and went down on one knee and said "I don't have a ring, but will you marry me?" Yes I said yes, obviously.

We haven't set a date, nor have we started planning. We're still in college, I think that allows us to be slow.

I'm so happy, and I haven't stopped grinning since Sunday night!!!

So yeah, I had a good weekend. Its so weird to see that I'm engaged to him or to call him my fiance'. Yeah I know, after saying that I wasn't gonna take him back, I turned around and said yes to his proposal. Ok headed to bed now.

Figure Skating

Its my Distraction tonight. Aside from my friends Ashley and Stephanie. Conference Im's. I dropped his stuff off. He broke down. That was the hardest thing to do, stick to my words. I dunno what to do....
I wanted him to grab my by the arm and spin me around and kiss me and tell me that he loves me. He didn't. He had his back to me when I left. I don't know what hurt worse. That he didn't do it, or that he was acting cold. I mean - he was it! He was the one I wanted for the rest of my life.
I guess I don't get what I want. That's life right?
I just have to keep walking. I had no classes today, both my professors are in San Diego for some conference. Ironic.
I've just watched Kim Yu Na, (Korea) Mao Asado (correct?) (Japan), Joannee (again spelling) Rochette (Canada), Rachael Flatt (USA) and Mirai Nagasu (USA) perform. Yu Na is gonna take gold, Asado is gonna take silver and Rochette bronze. The two U.S. skaters were good, but nothing compared to the three medalists. I liked Rochette the best, because it take GUTS to go out on the ice after her mother passed away.
Yes I'm rambling. Its getting my mind off of Josh. Not well, but it is....
More later.

It was not my fault

Its not my fault you failed your test. Its not my fault that you let yourself get distracted. I know you are having problems. I never tried to be clingy, that was unintentional. You wanted the distraction. You were the reason it took so long. You wanted me to walk away. I warned you that if I walk away, I am not coming back. I love you, I really do, but I'm not going to wait on you anymore. I'm not going to go through it again. You messed up, and I'm done. It feels like the world is crashing, but I'm too angry to care. Just because you're tired isn't a reason to skip class. I work until 2 am, and I stay up until like 3 or 4 am, and I STILL get up and go to my classes.
Don't you blame me for something you did. Ever. I'll still be your friend when my anger passes, but I will not be your girlfriend again. You go on, you make your career, you make a name for yourself. I'm already on the track to do that for me. I hope you realize what you did, even if I'm not going to come back.
I'm sorry that you think its my fault. I'm sorry that you're the one giving up. Its your loss, you're the one that knew what would happen if you told me to walk away. I'm not going to cry about it anymore. I did that. I hope you get what you want, because you lost me. You broke my heart once again. Good luck with that.

Waiting on class to start.

I'm overhearing a few girls talking, right? Well they're not talking about anything important. And they are talking about things that don't matter at all. They're putting way too much emphasis on things that don't need to be worried about. Leaving the dryer on when you leave your house? Um, that won't catch your house on fire - unless you don't keep up with the lent filter. Now, leaving your house with a candle going? That's pretty bad. Leaving your house with clothes in the washer? That's not good, considering it will get mildewy (I forgot about my laundry last night so yeah).
They're also talking about what they were wearing last night, and what they're cell phones look like and how its not supposed to look like it. Seriously? Its a phone. Mine's a piece of crap go phone from AT&T. Its beat up and scratched and such. My car's beat up, dented, scratched, etc. I don't think I really have a bad car, but considering I used to have a 1992 Red Honda Prelude, its nothing special. Yeah I wrecked my Prelude freshman year in college. I was driving to work, hydroplaned and hit a tree. Prelude totaled. Needed a new car. I hate people who thinks that they just need everything handed to them. Yes, I will admit that my first cars were given to me. The Prelude was given to me by my grandma, and my Malibu was given to me by grandpa. The Malibu doesn't even have a CD player. It has an FM/AM radio. Do you know how boring 8 hour car drives are now? Yeah no.... I can't complain though - because it gets me to and from work everyday.
So my boyfriend told his family that he's joining our school's AF ROTC (Air Force Reserve Officer Training Corp). The conversation went fairly well. Considering he thought that they'd murder him for it. Well we believe that his father is planning an intervention. I seriously think that they think that this was my idea. If it was my idea, I would've said Navy, since that's what I'm going into. It was interesting, their response. I wish that this whole thing had lit a fire under his butt though. But I don't think it did. I want him to want to marry me. So far, it doesn't look like its gonna happen.
But anyways, back to my overhearing this conversation. Don't they have anything better to talk about? Seriously? Like what they're gonna do after college? Maybe that's it. They don't know. Oh well.
Well that's all I'm gonna say on that. This past weekend was so monotonous....I think I rang up the same groceries both days. Tonight's supposed to be a little different, providing I actually get to do the job I'm supposed to do tonight. Ohhh Fun.
Its a gloomy day today. Friday went pretty well. I was in a good mood for the most part. I know that I'm just doing some rants so far, but that's all that's in my head right now. And a lot of it I can't say aloud.
I get my computer either at the end of this week or at the end of next week. I'm supposed to get my tax refund this week, and I was gonna spend it on my tattoo on my birthday week, but I might just get my tires for my car done. Sighs. I was hoping for my tattoo. But necessity comes before wants. Such is life.
Speaking of tattoos. I'm getting a butterfly on my shoulder (not because its a butterfly) and I'm gonna have a snake going up or down my leg. I think it'll be interesting. The butterfly I'm getting is because my two friends and I created a story with 3 sisters. Their family symbol was a butterfly.